All of my advances were shut down in the end

I feel cursed.
And it's the curse of falling in with the wrong people, at the wrong time.

I've held back so many words. And I've shrugged off a lot. But right now, I'm just angry. I don't know how to react anymore. I hate that if I do react it creates some huge problem. If I do say something though, it can't get turned around on me. There is no way I could be involved in any of this. So I'm going to try.

I'm tired of keeping my mouth shut.
And more than that, I'm tired of watching you keep yours shut too.