Sunday, June 28, 2009

And how’d we get here, It's too late to break it off

I'm really glad I ran into you three at the party.
And for some reason it was completely comfortable walking right up to you when I got there. And after we all had a couple cups, we finally started catching up again.

And wow.

I never thought I would've ended up crashing at your house, staying up all night, talking with the three people that I missed the most. With three people I was convinced I would never talk to again. And for the most part.. it all felt the same.

"We need to hang out more often"
I'm not exactly sure what I want to do with that, but I'm glad it was said.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

I don't recall a single care, just greenery and humid air

Thank you for making this one of the best days I've ever had.

My summer is really getting started.
And it really is like entering another world when the month of June hits.
I want this summer to be full of days like today. Days full of heat, and grass stains, and holding your breath as long as you can in the lake water. Nights with no sleep.

"I want to stay young forever."

I'm happy to say that when I'm old, when I look back on my life it's full of so much excitement. I'm glad to say that I am definitely not wasting away my youth.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Weather Reports

Friday, June 19, 2009

It's so much better, if you open your heart

"You say you've heard it all before
I'm not the man I used to be
And we all change from time to time

We all look for something more
forget the ones we truly need
its just a game we hide behind

Oh if you take my hand
and walk beside me, get lost inside me
oh I will love you if you say I can. walk beside me
get lost inside me

but you know it could be better if you open your heart
so much better if you open your heart
oh you know it could be better if you open your heart
so much better if you open your heart

you say your life is such a bore
and who am I to disagree?
I kind of like when you're in mine
the ineffective face you wore
the smile I hardly got to see
these are the things i just cant seem to leave behind
but when you talk about how bad you got it
well, you know it couldn't be that bad
cause life's to short to throw it away
you got the whole world in front of your eyes today
and thats a good enough reason to not be so sad

and I want you
and you need me
and I need you
and you want me

so lets smoke and lets drink and lets fly
talk till the sun hits the sky
walk through the water like jesus

you make me believe"

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Couldnt think of something to say the day you burst

I hate seeing you like this. I care about you too much to let you sink this low. I'm tired of you being betrayed by your friends and hearing all the terrible stories of the things they did to you. She was a bitch. She was terrible. And I told you from the beginning to not trust her.

Last night you knew what you had coming. And you don't remember any of it today. Your so called friends kept handing you shots, and handing you beers, and when you were talking to me, I didn't even know what you were saying. The next thing I know, you're handing me your shoes and purse and you're on the ground fighting her. And I'm wondering if you lost your mind. Everyone crowding around you, yelling. You get off the ground and take me into the bathroom. Fixing up yourself as you look in the mirror. "I'm not done yet." You looked like a mess. You hand me more of your things and you rush out towards her as people hold you back. She's being held back too, but she doesn't look nearly as crazed as you do. You finally push everyone off and scream the loudest scream, and every ones silent. You've now fallen to the ground, crying, screaming, with blood all over your face as she stands back, sipping on her beer, watching what she created.

You're kicked out, your ride bails, and you made yourself look weaker than I've ever seen you before.

And I want to go back to the day where you said,
"These are my friends now."

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Junior Year 2009

"This year went by in the usual way
Some friends were lost, some friends were made
Money was spent, money was saved
And in the end we're all ok
In the end we're all okay

If time is measured in memories
Don't set your clock to misery
The clicks should come from what you got
And not the things that you lost"

Saturday, June 13, 2009

It's days like today that I'm grateful for things like taste buds, and breaths of air. For sight, and sound. For extra seconds spent with you. For the warmth of my room, the comfort of my bed.

Please just let me keep everything as balanced as it is right now.
I can't let it all tip again.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

You forget it in people

I've learned a lot from you, probably more than you know. I've picked up a lot of things from you. You have taught me many things that have honestly changed me in ways. You've said things that I actually let get to my head, and apply to myself, which is something not many people know how to do. You're probably one of the most interesting people I've come across. I've always felt a connection, and I don't mean to sound like a creep in all of this, but the strangest part of it all is I don't even know you. And that was one thing that I wanted to do, get to know you. I got to know you through words, and songs, and observations, and there were a couple times when we were actually with the same people. But I never actually knew you.

But let me say thank you for teaching me the things you did through your writing. Even though they weren't on purpose. Even when they weren't directed towards me. Your views on things are amazing. And everybody in your life is lucky to have you. Sometimes it seemed like you understood me more than the people I'm around every single day. You have a great ability of capturing peoples emotions. You seem to have just about everything figured out.

The seniors are all graduated. And there are a couple that I'll miss.
But I'm just glad I knew them at one point.
It'll be weird not seeing them around anymore, what's even more weird, is the fact that I'm next in line.

Monday, June 8, 2009

So keep the blood in your head, and keep your feet on the ground

I ran into you today. And of course once again, it was such a weird feeling.
It's not awkward. No.. it never gets to that point. It would never be able to be like that between us, even if we don't know each other now. But it sort of messes with my mind. Half of our childhood was spent together.

When our friendship turned into you calling me back once a week, it always sounded like pitty. You were sorry for leaving me in the dust but I was never angry. It was what it was and I still cared about you. I wasn't upset. I wasn't upest. I wasn't upset. And I'd like for you to know that. I know you didn't know how to find an escape. I know you didn't know how to save yourself.

I'll remember the younger versions of ourselves.

And I will remember you before all of this

I'm not upset with what you've become. Or the things you've done.
I'm not upset that the drugs took over.

You're the smell before rain, you're the blood in my veins

I can't explain how perfect last night was. I loved waking up with you right next to me. The connection between us is indescribable. I feel so comfortable when I'm with you. I don't know how we ended up together, but I'm so glad we did. I don't understand how I could find someone so perfect for me, but I did.

I love you hiding your head from scary movies.
I love you hiding my keys when I have to leave.

I can't get enough of you.
every hug
every kiss
every conversation
makes me love you more

I've never stayed up so late in my life. But we stayed up until 9:00 in the morning. I didn't want to fall asleep because I didn't want to miss anything. I'd rather be looking into your eyes than closing mine.

I just saw you a couple hours ago and already miss you.
I just never want this to stop.

Friday, June 5, 2009

The stars are holding you, holding you, tonight

"Everything that seems like its a big deal right now, won't really matter in the future. Later on, everything's just fine and we'll look back and wonder why we stressed so much about it"

It's funny that you said that, because I was thinking the same thing right before you did. I was thinking about that when my dad was sending multiple texts telling me to come home. And when thinking about how your mom thought you were inside. They were both of course going to end up mad, but it didn't matter. Because we knew they'd be over it by the next day. You remind me to enjoy everything while it's happening. To keep your mind on what's right, and forget about the rest. Because it'll all blow over.

With you in my car, with you in my arms. I didn't need anything else.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Change is on the way, if you wanna live it out

I believe I've become somebody that I would like to know.

I will always find entertainment out of being the one who entertains.
I will always be a people person.

And on a side note, May 2009 was the best month of my life. I will never forget these times. These experiences. Or these people.
I can't get enough of this.