Monday, July 23, 2007

Grandpa Bob

You were so close to me. I didn't go anywhere today, I couldn't. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I'm sorry I didn't call you and say goodbye. I miss you, so much. You'll be remembered, forever.


"Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you'll be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will"

-Alterbridge

SO MANY MIXED EMOTIONS

Everything's right for me right now, I've been having the best times of my life one day after another, I have been seeing all of my friends, I've been busy just about every day, and I'm finally enjoying everything

But there's somethings I've just been blocking out of my head.
I regret telling her I like her, expecially since she said "You're just a friend now" I feel stupid. I liked her a lot. Whatever, I guess it's not that big of a deal right? We're still good friends, I'll live, life goes on. I just feel stupid and I let down. I have been wanting to tell her all summer, well at least I did it, and I least I got the truth. I've been feeling like there just isn't enough time in the summer. I try not to think about how it's coming to an end, and how next summer will be kind of different since we'll all have jobs by then. I guess that's why I've been busy so much. I've been trying to enjoy every single minute of it.

Joseph spent the night tonight
He's fun to be around, I'm glad we're hanging out again.
I get to see Julia tomorrow. I miss her so much

I'm going to bed. Actually joseph got the bed, I get to sleep on my wood floor. COOL!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

It feels so nice

to be back at my home again

It's kind of weird, I'm starting to miss the city that I just hated two days ago

It just feels good being in my big bedroom again and being back with all of my friends. I was gone way to long

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

I miss home

I want to come back to Oregon so bad
only seven more days, but it seems like those seven days are going to go by so slow
I want to be with my friends again!


I'M GOING INSANE
all the teenagers in this city hate me, and I hate them