Sunday, June 29, 2008

Pay attention to the details, we go slowly, slowly down

"I would stop time to stay with you"
"I would stop time to stay with you"
"I can't hear you, what?"
"Nevermind! now it's just awkward!"


The last night before you left for California was one of the best nights I've had this summer. I hope you're having fun. And know that all of Oregon misses you. I can't wait to see you in the end of August.

cops and robbers

'don't wait, because you'll just waste your time
you never listened to anything that I had to say
and now I'm beleiving the things that I'm lying about
cause in a heart beat we change so fast,
and now the stars are alligning, and the moon is setting.

and I will be the best damn constellation that is in your sky tonight'


Friday, June 27, 2008

That's what I'm waiting for

"Do you remember that time when we were riding our bikes with your brother and.."
"I ran into the trash can? Yeah I remember that"
"And the time when we saw food in the tree house and we thought.."
"That there was a bum living in there? Definitely remember that one."
"You interrupt me before i can even finish the sentence"
"Because i remember it all"
"Those are the times that I remember the most. It seems like I can remember those days better than I can remember what I did two days ago."

Nothing is the same with out you around.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

I don't know how obvious I can make it

I don't know how many more hints I can give.
I like you.

I don't wanna like you while I'm away in Idaho
It'll just be a big mood-bringer-downer. Constantly thinking what could of been or thinking what will never happen. The second option is more realistic.

But I can't help it
I can't de-attach myself from you.
I just seem to feel so comfortable whenever I'm around you, and I never wanna leave.

why do you have to be so oblivious?
and why do i always have to pick the complicated girls?

I'd rather have you know that i like you, then have you not have any idea that i do. And I'd rather tell you that i like you, and not get the same response, then to not know at all.

I think if nothing happens or changes soon, I'm just gonna try and forget about this feeling and tell myself that "it wouldn't of gone anywhere anyway"
plus, you like him.


Tuesday, June 24, 2008

it still gets me

Monday, June 23, 2008

just shrug it off?

it's sort of hard to stay out of it,
when you're watching all of it happen


It's gonna sound stupid and all, but it's really fun being me

I like keeping everything on the DL

And I like how I finally found a way to deal with peoples problems with out giving up on them

My independence is the greatest feeling ever
I don't rely on anyone, or anything

I have everything that I want
Everything I've ever wanted
And I deserve it, 100%

I love every single piece of my life

Friday, June 20, 2008


tonight's the first time i've had alone time in four days, and i don't like it.
i was hoping that i'd stay the night somewhere to night or something.
but no need to complain, every thing is so perfect right now.

except i like a girl, and i can't seem to get her attention.
i'm just gonna stop talking to her for a couple days and see if she even notices.

i haven't had one dull moment ever since summer started.
i'm supposed to go to the lake on saturday with caitlin and ramsey i think.
but we don't know what the weather will be like, so it might be rescheduled.

i'm going to bed early tonight.
1:00, so early, right?


Sunday, June 15, 2008

keep fighting

only two more days
only two more days
only two more days
only two more days
only two more days
only two more days

i am literally exhausted
constantly in auto-pilot
only working working working

i'm a walking, talking, robot lately

you have no idea how nice summer is going to be

Saturday, June 14, 2008

2 more years

and we'll be seniors
two more years and we'll be graduated
two more years and we'll all be starting our independent lives

in two more years and you'll be off to california, getting away from all that you've wanted to. and i know that it's hard to hear, and i know we usually try to avoid talking about this subject, but life isn't going to be the same when you move.

(this isn't my way of trying to make you feel guilty about moving, at all!)

i just figured it's time to face it
and it's time to make these two years the best that we can

i just hate picturing what it's gonna be like on the day when we say goodbye

Friday, June 13, 2008

I'll never get use to it

You know, after three years, you'd think I'd be over this whole thing.
You'd think I'd be able to set aside all thoughts of what I've lost.
But I never have. I never will.

My phone accidentally called you in my pocket today.
But by the time I took it out, it had already gone to your voicemail.
I'm sort of glad you didn't answer. If you would have, I wouldn't have anything to say. It would of just been a bunch of small talk. Which is probably all it'll ever be anymore.

Thursday, June 12, 2008


i've been really busy with studying, and projects
(hence why i haven't posted for a long time)
infact i have to go study soon, i just wanted to update on here

i've been using flickr more than myspace or blogger
so that explains my lack of posts and my lack of replies

everything is still going fine
i'm starting to actually care about my grades
...for the first time in my life

and i'm being serious. i really never cared about them before. i got by with copying, and half ass-ing everything. i'm done with that. and honestly, i feel a lot better now that i've made that change.

i gotta go study for the spanish final! bye!

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Never Ending Math Equation

I'm the same as I was when I was 6 years old
And oh my God I feel so damn old
I don't really feel anything

On a plane, I can see the tiny lights below
And oh my God, they look so alone
Do they really feel anything?

Oh my God, I've gotta gotta gotta gotta move on
Where do you move when what you're moving from
Is yourself?

The universe works on a math equation
that never even ever really ends in the end
Infinity spirals out creation
We're on the tip of its tongue, and it is saying,
We aint sure where you stand
You aint machines, and you aint land
And the plants and the animals, they are linked
And the plants and the animals eat each other

Oh my God and oh my cat
I told my Dad what I need
Well I know what I have and want
But I don't know what I need
Well, he said he said he said he said
"Where we're going, I am dead."

Thursday, June 5, 2008

For Blue Skies

It's been a long year
Since we last spoke
How's your halo?
Just between you and I
You and me and the satellites
I never believed you
I only wanted to

Before all of this
What did I miss?
Do you ever get homesick?
I can't get used to it
I can't get used to it
I'll never get used to it
I'll never get used to it

I'm under that night
I'm under those same stars
We're in a red car
You asleep at my side
Going in and out of the headlights
Could I have saved you?
Would that've betrayed you?

I wanna burn this film
You alone with those pills
What you couldn't do I will
I forgive you
I'll forgive you
I'll forgive you
I forgive you

For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
For blue, blue skies
I'll forgive you