Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Hey, Nick

Coming across this made me crack up

I miss hanging out with you, buddy

More than you think

we've got everything

We've tried everything
half assed it, and as liars, and thats how we've got everything.

If we carried it out to sea, pushed it over the edge, we could have all been through. Well no one even bothered showin' up, but we still did what we should have thought through.

We crashed in like waves into the stars
Didn't want it, didn't need it, but we knew that we could see it, so we opened up the door.

We receded like waves out of the stars
Didn't want it, didn't need it, but we knew that we could steal it, left it dying on the floor

We've got everything
We've got everything
We've got everything down to a science so I guess we know everything
We've got everything
We've done everything
We've tried everything
We've got everything
We've got everything

Tuesday, May 27, 2008


you know what's great?
getting stuck in public places

it was with these bad asses:

*good expression amara*

okay let me tell the story

we were on campus and we wanted to go to the 'knight library' thinking it was the 'NIGHT library' which obviously made us think it was open all night. anyways, as we were coming in, we noticed a huge amount of people coming out. but we went upstairs anyway. we were going through all the 1230921300 isles. and we were up there for about an hour. when we decided to leave we went down and noticed there was no workers there, and all the students that were there were gone.

and when we walked to the front doors. they were locked.
which was very ironic because just before that, we were saying how crazy it would be if we got locked in.

we ran from door to door trying to find an exit
and it took a while until we could find the emergency exit

but when we got out, we wished we hadn't of left.
i mean, we had the whole building to ourselves.
but it was a pretty great experience.


where does the good go?

i'm sick of your constant stressed mood
and the way you're bringing me down
and getting in my way of having fun

i keep having dreams where we are arguing
or where i'm telling you off
and the other night i had a dream where we came to a mutual agreement to not be friends

what the hell does that mean?

Monday, May 26, 2008

post 200

i was at modest mouse last night
and it definitely falls in as one of the best nights of my life

it was amazing

finally i can say that i've seen both of my all time favorite bands live

i can't even explain how great it was.

Laugh hard, it's a long way to the bank
I can't be blamed for nothing anymore
It's been a long time since you've been around
Laugh hard it’s a long way to the bank

Tow the line to tax the time, you know
That you don't owe
I can't be a fool for everyone that I don't know

Thursday, May 22, 2008

well, shit

i wish you'd actually live a little
instead of worrying if what you're doing seems "weird" or worrying that what you're doing isn't "mature"
we're fucking sixteen

Monday, May 19, 2008


It's not even the end of thy year
But I'm still gonna fill out this end of the year survey


Period 1:

Period 2:

Period 3:
Spanish 2

Period 4:


Period 1:
Caitlin and Michele

Period 2:
Cody and Caitlin

Period 3:
Danielle and Samira

Period 4:
Well baaaack in the day, michele. Now just chelsea and taylor and chris.

Random Questions

- Who annoyed you most during 3rd period?
I hate you!

- Who did you sit with at lunch?
I don't "sit" at lunch. I'm always with Caitlin and Ramsey.

- Which period was the most boring?
None of them. I seem to find a way to keep myself entertained in all of them.

- Where are you most likely to fall asleep or not pay attention?
I fall asleep in spanish class

- Which class did you get the most homework?

- What was your favorite class?
Overall this year? Multicultural studies. But the ones I have now? Biology.

- Do you like lunch?

- Do you like going to school?

- Who sits behind you in Period 3?
That weird kid, Josh

- How many kids are in your Period 2
I can't count that many

- What teacher do you dislike the most?
None of them

- Can you talk in your 3rd period?
Everybody talks so much in the class. Jesus. It gets annoying.

- Who sits next to you in 4th period?
Ellinore. Hahwahhhahah. Ah.

- Summarize your year in two words?
alloverthefuckingplace craaaaazy

- What do you hope next year is gonna be like?
Next year will be one of the best years of my lifeeee

"Are you listening to country?"

'Looking back now, well it makes me laugh
We were growin our hair, we were cuttin' class
Knew it all already, there was nothing to learn
We were strikin' matches just to watch 'em burn

Listen to our music just a little too loud
We were hangin' in there with the outcast crowd
Headin' to the rapids with some discount beer
It was a long train tussle but we had no fear.

Man I don't know, where the time goes
But It sure goes fast, just like that
We were wanna be rebels who didn't have a clue
With our Rock n' roll T-shirts, and our typically bad attitudes
Had no excuses for the things that we'd done
We were brave, we were crazy, we were mostly.. young'

Sunday, May 18, 2008

basically, my theme song for may

If it makes you less sad
I will die by your hand
I hope you find out what you want
I already know what I am
And if it makes you less sad
We'll start talking again
And you can tell me how vile
I already know that I am

I'll grow old
And start acting my age
I'll be a brand new day
In a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget

If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out
It's as cold as a tomb
And it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed
To pour salt in your wounds
So call it quits
Or get a grip
Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget
So you can forget
You can forget

You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white like the skin stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself the best you can
You are the smell before the rain
You are the blood in my veins


i'm so sunburned
well, my arms

i'm about to do homework and then i guess family's coming over to have a late 'birthday party' for me. i don't get the point of it. honestly, i don't want it. i don't wanna deal with company right now.

...I just wanna do my homework, for once.

Saturday, May 17, 2008


i didn't do anything at all today
except go driving for a little

i mean, if you say you're going to call, then call.
if you want to have alone time, tell me you guys want to have alone time.
but don't tell me the night before that you want to hang out with me and then cancel out the next day.

i could of made other plans with people last night. and i would have if i knew this was going to happen today.

but whatever i guess. yesterday was a lot of fun. the best day that i've had this month probably. i went all around with caitlin, ramsey, and chelsea. we went to the river, to ramseys house, to coldstone, downtown, and then at the end of the night to the top of skinners butte. it was an awesome day, it went by so quick though.

and jesus i love this heat. i don't care what anybody else says.
quit your complaining. i love this weather.

i don't think my dad will let me go anywhere tomorrow.
since it's a sunday and everything. but we'll see.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

this is awkward

i commented you so we can catch up
but you never log on

shit i'm just gonna be straight forward

i miss you zoe

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

happy as a clam

i'm sixteen
it's my birthday
i have my permit
and everything is going right

happy birthday to me

Tuesday, May 13, 2008


i'm taking my permit test at 11:30
i'm nervous. if i don't pass i will go insane.


here we go

Monday, May 12, 2008

These are supposed to be the best years of our lives
This is the time for adventure. Shit. By next year we'll all have jobs. There won't be "unlimited free time"

I wanna take advantage of this time
I wanna be adventurous
I don't wanna waste away

And either you're in with me. Or I'm out.

I'm tired of blaming this town for the reason we can't come up with anything to do anymore. We've got a car. There's a million places to go. There's a million things to do. There's a million things to see. But every idea of mine "is to big of a plan" fuck that.

And since when have we had to have a reason to go somewhere, or do something?

I don't wanna waste away anymore.

I'm done with "I don't know, what do you wanna do?"
Lets fucking live. Lets make these times we won't forget.

Sunday, May 11, 2008


i hated this weekend so much
i did absolutely nothing

nobody could do anything

either somebody was working
or couldn't get a ride into town
or was out of town

or whatever

i was basically home all weekend. my dad said it was nice.
but i think it was torture.

and david finally gave me the couch for my room
i love my bedroom now
its so comfy

three days until my birfday

Thursday, May 8, 2008


What the faaawk?
Has it really been four days since I've posted on here?

It feels like I just posted yesterday. Guess not.
I've been really busy with school and everything lately. I have to wake up at 8:00 tomorrow for my job shadow. I'm job shadowing a Psychologist. It should be really interesting/really awkward.

I'm so god damn nervous.

After I go to his office and ask him some questions we're driving over to LCC. He's gonna be teaching a class there. So I'm just gonna sit and observe while he teaches, and take notes.

He said I'll find the lesson he's teaching interesting so I'm looking forward to it. Just not looking forward to the awkwardness and the whole waking up early thing on a weekend.


Sunday, May 4, 2008

Feel the tidle waves take us so much further away

Everybody around me is rushing
Going with this "live fast" attitude

Slow down
Calm down

We have so much more time

Saturday, May 3, 2008

I feel so alive

I love today. I spent the whole day with family. I went on so many bike rides. And one of them my dad came with me. Which is unusual. We're actually getting along now though. I love bike riding. In fact, I just got back from one. The wind had stopped and the sun was about to set, so I wanted to go on one more before it got dark.

It was the best bike ride I've ever gone on.

I rode far down this country road by my house. And it's now my favorite road to ride down. I mean it's just a bunch of green fields and nice country homes. But it's still great.

After a while I got tired and stopped in some field far away from everything.
Really. There was nothing in site.
I just lied there for a while.

It was so great.

My room looks so good
It's all clean and nice to be in right now
I've done so many changes to it
It's so comfortable

Oh and I organized my desk area and made it look all nice by moving all my books and my stacks and stacks of CDs



You know

I need to start putting ideas into motion and stop saying ' what if '.
I've forgiven and forgotten. I've fucked up and been fucked over.

I just want you to follow through this time

I need you to follow through this time

Thursday, May 1, 2008

This place is a prison

"This place is a prison
And these people aren't your friends
Inhaling thrills through $20 bills
And the tumblers are drained and then flooded again
And again

There's guards at the on ramps armed to the teeth
And you may case the grounds from the cascades to puget sound,
But you are not permitted to leave

I know there's a big world out there like the one i saw on the screen
In my living room late last night,
It was almost too bright to see
I know that it's not a party, if it happens every night
Pretending there's glamour and candelabra
When you're drinking by candlelight

What does it take, to get a drink in this place?"