Hi

You got yourself into it
If you want change, try getting yourself out of it.


It's not my fault
Not my problem
And trying to guilt trip me doesn't do anything



I'm back on here
I've been busy working with my dad. And busy with homework. And all that jazz. But really, I'm back on here.

I'm going to throw all my anger into here

I hate you
I found out everything
Don't ever think you can get anything past me ever again

You'll never win. You're stupid and annoying.

I hate February. I hated January. I hated Decemeber.
Srew this situation. And screw everyone!

And to top things off my dad's taking away my phone on monday.
And he's coming up with more punishments for me because of my grades.
As if this long terrible grounding was not enough.

I hated arguing with him on his birthday. I feel so guilty. But I'm really not wanting to make nice with him right now when he's making everything ten times worse.

Screw this.

A new start

I feel a new start coming on

Not just because of our new classes and everything. But I'm actually starting to realize a lot of positive changes in myself. And I like it.

Other then that, I don't have much to update you on.

Sleep all day

Patrick left this morning

Ramsey picked up Jacob and I around 6:30 and then we went straight to the airport. Caitlin met us there too. We spent about two hours there. Sitting around with him, and laughing at the awkward adults that kept giving him gifts, and talking about good times. And then before I knew it it was time for him to get on his plane.

We all sort of stood there in shock. It was really hard to grasp the fact that he was actually leaving. Because to all of us, he was one of our best friends. It was really hard.

We were standing there silent just watching him go through security.
Then we see him get out his phone and he called me
"Can you guys stop staring at me? It's sort of awkward"
Ha!

I've been in the most depressed mood today. So I've slept over half of the day. I'm sure everybody that was close to him is feeling pretty down right now. He's such a great person. I'm so glad we met.
I'm going to miss that kid more than anything.
I'll miss him constantly correcting my grammar.
And him attempting to teach me german words.
And him always saying "Are you making fun of my accent?"


I still can't believe he's actually gone.

The way I see it..

You always seem to be putting on an act

: /